After completing his PSLE, Eugene went on to Clementi Woods Secondary. I aimed for Commonwealth Secondary, which had a much higher aggregate score. I didn't want to enter Clementi Woods as I didn't want to face him if I ever bump into him while walking in school. Sadly, I didn't achieve what I had to achieve to enter Commonwealth Secondary and the only school I could enroll into was Clementi Woods Secondary.
For 2 years when I was in Clementi Woods, I had obviously by past him quite a number of times in school. But, we didn't talk to each other. However, I sent him a friend request on Facebook, and he actually accepted! I was so happy I think I was jumping! I have made some best friends by then, and I told them about Eugene.
At the end of Secondary 2, I couldn't take it anymore. I decided, if he won't make the initiative, then I will. So I sent him a Facebook message and strike a conversation with him. And he replied! Afterwards, I told him what was really going on in my mind back then and cleared up the misunderstanding between us. Now, we are finally friends again! I even asked for his phone number and he actually gave it to me!
We talked a lot. He resumed his position as a brother and a friend to me in my heart. Sometimes, we even have lunch together. Slowly, we were back to how close we were in the past.
I realized though, that when we were together, I would be so happy that I could go on being in a good mood for days. Later on, I realized that, I've fallen for him again.
"Hey. Why are you so quiet today? You usually have a lot to talk." He asked me one day after school when we were on the way home together. "Who bullied you? Tell me, Brother will settle it for you." I turned to look at him. I stare into his eyes for a moment, and smiled. "Nothing. No one bullied me, the moment they find out I'm your sister they back away immediately, they don't even have the chance to touch me a bit at all, how can they bully me?" He grinned. I like it when he grins, it shows his dimple. After a few seconds of silence, he spoke again. "If that's the case, why are you so quiet today? It's unlike your usual self, you know." What should I say? I... can't possibly tell him that I like him, can I? "Is it something that I can't know of? If that's the case then never mind. I won't force you." I look up, we were reaching home soon.
"Well actually it's nothing much. It's just that I realized..." I turned to face him. He had a blur look on his face, like a little boy trying to understand what his teacher is trying to teach. "I realized that I... developed a crush for you again."
His eyes turned wide. As if nothing happened, I continued on. "I liked you once back then, before the misunderstanding. And now, it came back again." I ended with shrug. Like nothing happened, I smiled and said. "I've reached. Thanks for the company! See you around!"
I turned and ran towards the lift. Just when I was about to press the lift button, I ran back to him again. "You don't have to mind my feelings you know. Really. I don't mind if it isn't reciprocated, I just thought that well, maybe you should know after all. We can always continue on as before. This will be the last time I ever show my feelings for you as an admirer, I promise you. The next time we meet, I'll be back to being your sister again." I smiled at him, and walked back towards the lift.
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